Quickie update!

for christmas got: Sabrina the Teenage Witch season 4, Fullmetal alchemist seaon2 part 2, $70 in target gift cards, a Hellow Kitty blanket, two Hello Kitty shirts, Hello Kitty lip gloss, Hello Kitty...tissues....(stocking stuffers), Aro shirt, Forver 21 shirt, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince DVD, The Art of Fullmetal Alchemist 2 (the seond book, I now have BOTH!), A embrodered blanket (elderly clouple awlays do that for us, family friends), Malteziers and friends (BRITISH CANDY! better than any malt ball you'vve ever had. NO REALLY.), an alam clock that's not too bright and charges/plays my iPod, Rock Band Beatles, and thats about it.

FUNNY STOIRES ON THE GIFTS: I finally felt confortable asking for FMA from my VERY RELIOIOUS FMAILY. they've now no longer cared. apparently for year I could have had out all of my fma stuff.....ANYWAY my grandparntes ought me season 2 part 2. I don't have part 1. i needed the box set cuz it has episodes 26-51. I just abought season 2 part 1. it lacks three episodes i need. I had to also buy another FMA dvd. I now will have to copies of episode 25. XD LOVE AMAZON! And my dad for giving me his credit card to buy it cuz i'm going to pay him back. > I really will, i only owe him another like....$10......

I now only have $25 left on my target gift cards. I spent it all on two itmes. 1, new ear buds, they were cheap and NICE and mine were broken. 2, Kingom Hearts 358/2 days. Yeah, i gave in after SWEARING to NEVER IN MY LIFE buy it. I broke my word due to the fact all my friends who've played it said it was great. >.> DARN THEM!!

btw I've yet to play my new KH game...had it one day now. to the hour its been a day and an hour. XD

well I guess ican't say much else, nothing has really gone on down here. Christmas break kinda like sucks cuz all my friends i want to see are BUSY. ;__; I did see two of my friends, one of which a few days in a row but i haven't seen her in MONTHS. so yay.

now i go.

LATERZ

Wow been a while huh? Well stress has been licking at my heels for a while now and think has finally mangaed to eat my legs. Needless to say I fell prey to stress and am now its dinner. Things have been rather hard, and I guess some of it is to blame for myslef and others not.

Main HUGE reason for my stress: INTERNSHIP. That class is so hard I seriously wish it was college credit like it should be. It isn't in my county and it really should be counted as such since it is in most areas. Its also the class I work the HARDEST and the MOST in. Not only do I devote 7 hours a week (the maximum I can work w/o law requiring me to be paid) also have weekly emails to send, print each and collect them, and massive huge papers. Since September I've written one three paged paper, TWICE mind you, two copies of a thank you letter, three copies of my resume, and some other letter. That is only PART of what I've done. On thursday I have to interview one of the ladies who works at the daycare. I have to have at LEAST 85 questions prepared to ask, write a transcript, and write a five paged paper on this. This is all outside my working times too.

My number two stress bringer is, naturally, Tech. The class isn't even tech anymore! We spend NO time doing anything but writting notes, and buling things. We built PAPER AIR PLANES FOR A PROJECT. I'm not joking, it was a 20 point project since we have them like ONCE A WEEK. and we have quizes at least twice a week. Not to mention my teacher cannot hear, literally. we will ask him something and cuz his hearing aid never works he never hears us half the time. That class just makes me so mad too. No one in that class likes me, my teacher does not blieve me cuz I'm always partnerless. He thinks I'm lazy. I asked three people once and they looked at each other and asked if they all had partners then decided to join as a group right in front of me. I see that as "we don't want you" and I'm sure others do too. Oh and did i mention the class is pointless cuz it literally does not aid you at all in anything since all we talk and write notes about involve nothing but BUILDING. Its practially a construction class. I hate it with my life.

My third class that brings on stress is HONORS ENGLISH. I love that class, I really truely do. I love my teacher, she's awesome. I love the people in my class, i have friends I've met in there and get along with people. The issue: papers. We never take tests, all we do is read and write papers. We finish a book, start a new one and write a paper on the book we just finished while duscussing the new book. I adore the books we're reading though, they are so good! I just have real issues with the papers and my grades never being updated cuz i now has a C and i'm sure it should be a low B but my teacher never grades fast enough since she's so busy. I sympthize with her, i totaly understand all she's doing cuz I've done simular in lower scale way. The thing is I just seriously need my grades to go up or I'll get pulled out of my first and only Honors class and that would just...it would kill me. I really just will not give up that class. I've worked so hard and love it too much to just give it up.

My stress with school prety much ends right there. Stress else where starts right after school. Stress starts with and ends with money, time, and juggling friends. Money has been and always been an issue for me. Parents are pastors, Salvation Army Officers. Everyone should know, MONEY IS AN ISSUE FROM THE START. I have so little time since I've moved my time for intrenship to spending my time from 1:25 to 3:15 mondays, tuesdays and thursdays at internship and my wendsdays from 1:25 to ~2:20. By friday I am so tired I just want to go home by the time of my last period. My school has 7 periods but due to my being in internship I only really have 6. I leave school a little after 1:20. Fridays, I rush home to finally relax. Now as for juggling friends that is all about trying to seperate my time for them and work. I really really try to spend time with them in school and out, I do. I just become so tired and try so hard sometimes to see people that when i'm told no, I just am too exhuased to do anything.

Right now you can tell, "Woah that is a lot to read so it must be a lot to deal with." Well its not but it is. It is only bits and peices of what I'm really dealing with. These are only the things I'm willing to talk about here. There are many things I haven't mentioned that are stressing me out too. I'm now really tired, I usually go to bed around now since I see not much of a reason staying up since no one really ever talks to me online or on the phone (btw i HATE phones cuz 85% of the time I call, the person is not there, there but cannot come to the phone, ignors me, or talks for less than 15 minutes).
Well laterz!